Thursday, April 23, 2009

An Upset

Had a major upset at work. I've screwed up big time and been having sleepless nights. I put the blame on myself. I'm usually so careful and am even more so with this new job. And yet, i still (*&*(-ed up. My boss tried to pacify me and said 'shit happens'. Very nice of him, but I can't seem to get over it. In a sudden turn of fate, I'm actually feeling more responsible and accountable for this job, and starting to care, and the job matters to me. Sigh. Perhaps it's a sign of turning 30something, or it could be I just need to relax and eff it, it's just a freaking job.

Easier said than done though. Like Wei said, we have to take pride in our work. And i do, but if shit happens, I would see this as a failure...a major screwup. What can I do but hope for the best and vow to do better. Sigh.


Gallivanter said...

It's part and parcel of life la, we all have ups and downs. Don't beat yourself too hard, it's part of the learning process.

philters said...

i know what you mean. but remember that you got to wipe them tears, put a plaster over the wound and get up again and move on. this incident will always be a scar you bear, but you must know that life does not stop here, people DO get second, third, fourth and even fifth chances in life, and when you have hit rock bottom, things can only get better from there.


jemima said...

Don't be so hard on yourself.

We all learn from our mistakes and we can only get better with age.

Take care. *hugs*

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