Our little brother

Can’t believe we lose yet another Alvin. Gone too soon and leaving behind 2 young kids. Missing your cheeky smile and happy go lucky self. Always ready for fun and never feeling too down for anything. So many memories. But big bro Alvyn will take care of you , Alvin Zhai. 

Alvyn

It’s been more than a month since his passing. Seems not so long ago we can hear him crack a joke, always jovial and positive about everything in life. He was always very enthusiastic and even in the condition he was in, he strides on with much gusto everyday. How does one do that ? I always admired his silent strength, celebrating small wins and taking joy in the smallest of things. He would never brush you off or dismiss you, whether you are a child or an adult or an elderly. He touched so many people and it’s evidentiary from the people we know. I remember wheeling him around the mall and he said “ hey this is so convenient, for everyone, perhaps you should encourage your dad to let you wheel him around too.” Yes that’s Alvyn. Without ego and always caring for others before himself. RIP Alvyn, I wish I could update you on what’s happening in the EV and automotive space, the friends you introduced to me and where we are at.  

Final Rite of Passage

It was 5am at Subang airport - made it to the wake finally at 8.30am. No one was there so I had some time looking at the photo compilation and saying my last prayer to Alvyn- that we will take care of everyone he loves in the family as we always do. I got to pick the songs for the final rites of passage right up to bringing back his ashes to the Novena home. 

U2 and Alvyn. 

The One and only who moved us in so many ways- Always a Song for Someone. You were Stuck in a moment you can’t get out of and while we wanted you to Stay , and fight Every Breaking Wave, you passed on … hope you Sleep Like A Baby Tonight. Whole and Magnificent.

We will now Walk On, With or Without You, we remember You with Pride … the Unforgettable Fire. 

Uncle Al

It has been a tough week. Just like that and Alvyn is gone now. He was the most patient and good natured person - always ever jovial, and if the topic interest him he is often strategic and insightful. We had so many wonderful memories of him, of things he would say and music he would share. Even the ICU had strange random acquaintances of his waiting silently - it showed how many people he has touched over the years. It also showed he has a great life and perhaps this is all for the best that he no longer suffer and that he can be whole again. Am thankful for the friends who were kind to comfort me this week. Till we meet again Alvyn. 

Yee Sang

Up to my 8th Yee Sang before the start of CNY. I am taking note because it’s a privilege and blessing to have gatherings of such where we usher in the new year. It didn’t matter if some groups are small- up to 3 people only even. It’s a testimony of friendships that last. Most are practically friends who grew up with me , seen me through everything. PS: looking forward to meet pah mid Feb!

I am however not obsessed with CNY decor and getting new clothes. I just feel it’s a waste of money and I try to be a minimalist. But this year I got some new clothes for myself and Lucas. He is older now so he no longer JUST wear whatever I want him to. Although 60% of the time he would oblige anyways. 

This year is also a year of I think work turmoil but here’s hoping a rather small one. I often joke about the company’s politics are really no different from Malaysia govt politics. They decide our fate unless you bother to rub the right shoulders in your favour. But at your deathbed would these all even matter ?

Also volunteered myself to tutor my nephew. I thought actions speak louder than words. I jsut hope I don’t bite on my words later LOL. 

Meanwhile - I think after 40++ years I really ought to master saying good stuff in Cantonese during lou hei !