Fitting In

How many of you actually tried to change yourself to conform to society's general perception just to be acceptable? I think we all went through that 'mode' when we were little kids trying to clinch a clique/gang just so we are labelled as 'acceptable". We might have played some silly game, shunned the others whom the 'gang leader' has labelled as 'losers' or 'unacceptable'. It is the cowards' fault who allows the 'gang leader' to have so much power. Even as we get older, that sort of 'practise' still prevails. You try to stay true to yourself but then when you're in your teens you don't wanna have lonely Friday nights, and so you force yourself to indulge in what the 'gang' wants to do- be it shopping, disco-prancing, etc. But deep inside you know you don't fit in at all. But if you really think deeply, maybe it's the 'gang' that doesn't fit you. The truth is that even when you are older, in your 20s and 30s, you can never win to fit in any clique if you don't know what's your niche. What moves you? What inspires you? What are your desires? Those little things make you what you are and what your personality is. If we do not even recognize our ownself, how do you expect others to do so? If by trying to fit in I lose myself, I'll rather be alone. If by trying to fit in, I always have to accomodating to the gang's needs or the gang's every whim and fancy, I'll rather be rotting at home man. As opposed to fitting in, one can always have a good time by oneself. What's wrong with just reading a book once in a while? Watching a movie alone once in a while? Enjoying simple pleasures like cooking for oneself? Go for a massage once in a while? The thing is that if we are constantly looking for a gang to fit in, we will always be alone.