I know it's friday but just wanna talk about this ANXIETY. it's something that bothers me maybe every now and then. sometimes thinking about things puts me on a panic frenzy.
lately it's the thought of retiring. whether i'll actually save enough money to 'retire in style'. not talking about millions of money but enough for me to have a good retirement- for travelling and just to get by day by day until i finally 'check out'. With our current salary and the little annual increment we get, this hope seems hard to reach. Now doesn't that make you anxious????!!! In the next 30 years or so, i'll be old, useless, dispensable, and won't have the savings to put me on a comfy bed with enough grubz to fill my tummy.
Nother thing that makes me worried is just how small our world is getting, with less land and more water. We're getting hotter and hotter. Diseases are getting more 'accessible' because of this. And there's so many new diseases these days and calamities are more often than ever. Seriously, sometimes it feels like the END IS NEARING. I fear one day 'THe Day After Tomorrow" will come. you know that movie where everything freezes up because of the screwed up environment that humankind have caused?
It also makes me anxious to think that people will die. people around me will die eventually. If they say being the youngest is great well that's not entirely true. think about it. You'll be the last to 'check out' and you'll have to watch all your older loved ones leave u one by one. I think that is agonizing enough. You can only love and appreciate them now, this situation is irreversible (unless those time machine in DejaVu exists-then can pinjam).
Ok..so now i've shared my anxieties. I feel that i've lifted at least 30% off my head.phew